while they were away i cleaned the house and the toilets. I also packed the room. i felt so accomplished after that... but i realised how hard is it to really make your house clean... its such a chore yet a necessity.

im extremely exhausted. i stayed at Czekin's house till midnight waiting for Laraine to come back from Australia...

what did i get from her ? oh. you didn't pump full tank? well if you were more giving and generous with petrol and... didn't ask me always to pump what you use. I would have pump full... Yeps. its works both ways. Don't expect the little brother to do so much... when he isn't working... at least i got a thank you from her when i reached home. if not i would ... be pissed.



ohwell.. I loved one rochester. It was a beautiful place with awesome ambience... wonderful food. beautiful trees! bugs! I don't mind going back again.... the company was wonderful too.



Fireproof was a touching show... it made me realised a few things that i have been constantly neglecting.. it also reminded me about the difference in it.

1. loving unconditionally. well. i have always knew that i should do it. but... i always found it very hard to do... last mth i came to a realisation that our love must come from God becos our love is selfish. etc etc... This also means... loving her when you dont feel doing so anymore. Loving her still becos you are committed and you have promised to love her in good times and the bad and allowing God to help you to love.

2. I understood the fact that God is our creator we should therefore worship him.... becos he provides for our every needs.. the fan the food that we have are all from him... but there was something that i forgot... that was very important.... it was that Jesus died for my sins and that Jesus loved me with a unconditional love. All this was head knowledge to me. but now i am starting to understand a little bit more about unconditional love. About how can a man love someone who keeps rejecting him... time and time again... who can do that? only Jesus/God.

3. I realised i have been hurting too many people in the process... I should have known better. Now i feel guilty and... angry at the same time. Sometimes... i wonder what kind of man am i really am... maybe i dont even know the hidden agendas that i have...

I will make sure it will be the best... and the last... i do not want to hurt 1 more again..
There are many more stuff that i would like to share but my mind so tired haha....

anyway my feet is peeling horribly... i think i have to stop wearing slippers for a while.... I am gonna soak my slippers in dettol for 1 day. lol lets see... if it can kill the bacteria?!