Many people begin coming to God once they stop being religious, because there is only one master of the human heart— Jesus Christ, not religion. But “Woe is me” if after seeing Him I still will not obey ( Isaiah 6:5 , also see Isaiah 6:1 ). Jesus will never insist that I obey, but if I don’t,I have already begun to sign the death certificate of the Son of God in my soul. When I stand face to face with Jesus Christ and say, “I will not obey,” He will never insist. But when I do this, I am backing away from the recreating power of His redemption. It makes no difference to God’s grace what an abomination I am, if I will only come to the light. But “Woe is me” if I refuse the light.
-utmost for his highest.

Woe is me if i refuse the light. if i know the light yet turn away from it. what punishment, what can i say on the day of judgement.

God, Jesus, is not about his presence, it is not about his miracles, it is not the good deeds or service that i do for him. It is just all about a person, a being, a God. and his character - his sacrificial love, his holiness, his community, his grace, his mercy......

what will heaven be like.

what will hell be like.

i hope my dad have a safe trip....

screwed up. to think i even was concerned and, to think i wanted to see you....

and you gave me what?

" No dad then find me la ... sheesh... "

what a stupid stupid reply.

i spend almost everyday with you. and now my dad comes home for only 5 days. and i am quite busy you come out with this reply. what the hell man.... no one talks about my family like this.

if i dont love you... i NO dad also wont come and find you la ....

I tried to fix it... but it failed...

haha... sometimes you shouldnt try at all. leave it as it as...

pretend that you didnt see it. because you dont even know if its there. or whateverr.

goodnights.

mine (:

i am falling deeper and deeper in love with my love... she is just so fun to be with. today... she made me do some exercises! haha...now im so tired.

anyway we went to amk hub. and i collected my specs! i kinda like it! its black and cheap! haha... ohwell. i shouldn't have lost my old one in the first place but.... i think both looks nice.

i got a sexy phone pouch now too! haha.... so now i got a sexy spectacle case, a sexy phone pouch and.... my gorgeous dear (:

Money Woes

i'm offically broke. i dont think i have enough money to survive. damn....

whatever...

saturday... was the day i spent $728 dollars on a bike....
well... i dont really regret it. because i will need it during my university...

there are many thoughts that are running through my mind...

the insurance.... is not settled.

irritating i dont have enough money to spend. i need to save and save...

i lost my specs.... the specs which i love..

okayokay... God help me.

luckily i had someone to cheer me up! to come all the way from her house to meet me... thank God for her...

Parents

Who are parents? What is your father and mother to you?

What kind of parents do you want to be in the future?

Parents…
I only learnt to cherish my parents abit more when I started to enter the army…. When I realized they have been good to me. Our family did not have much money. So our house did not have a lot of nice items … most of the cabinets were brought over from the old home… So the interior design of the house was terrible. I remember when I was young… I always envied those people who were rich… aww they had a gameboy… oh they had a ps1… while I was stuck with a computer playing pokemon. Haha….

But now I finally notice.. that actually they have been trying to provide for our education and for our well-being. They probably are trying to save enough money to provide for their retirement too so that they will not depend on us so much… that is why our house is so old…. I mean… why wouldn’t my father spend more … to make his house look nicer.. I’m sure he would want that.. just that he can’t afford it.

I remember… this sentence… that struck me very deep. Do you treat your home like a hotel? I wish that there were more opportunities to spend more time with my family. Sometimes I think we grow up too fast.

Today I just heard of a crazy incident about a 21 years old guy who cant stand his mother…. His mother asked e maid to clean up his room cos it was very messy. And e ipod was missing…. They are from a rich family… so he called up his mom.. and talked as usual the mom nagged abit… and he threw his phone down and broke the phone…. He said “This is my room, I do what I like to my room.” Later on he broke a piece of plate… and told his mom I’ll break everything in the house… if you don’t stop talking. after talking to the mom again… and after that.. his dad talked to him.. he told his dad…. If you don’t stop talking… I’ll smash your car. Wth… what an ass. =/
Such utter disrespect for the mommy. IT isn’t his house omg. Its his parents house. He is feeding on his parents’ money and he takes things for granted. His phone, his ipod were all presents from his parents too.. and here he scold his mother for trying to do him a favour…

There are a few things I would like to comment on. In the bible… the one of the Ten Commandments is to honor your father and mother… it is a commandment… becos after all they are the ones that take care of us. As I see Khim taking care of her baby I realized how much work it is… to just take care of one small kid…. Khim also had to endure 9mths of “suffering”? Our parents love us just as God love us. However no one is perfect. They are after all humans. No matter whether they are right or wrong, good or bad parents… we are supposed to honor them… becos we are to learn submission to our leaders.

Furthermore, I cant imagine how the boy’s kids or wife would live in his house, Or how his kids will treat him when they grow up. I believe that if you have no respect for your parents… in the future your kids will also have no respect for you, because you will not be able to impart certain values that are crucial for your kids to grow well… and... you will not want next time your kids to be like you when you try to be helpful to them or you accidentally irritate them abit THEY scream and throw items at you... what kind of kids are they then?

Sometimes its not about being right all the time…. Many of a times… it is the relationship that you care about…. So you try to do all you can to patch it up.. Just a simple I’m sorry when you really mean it…. Will work. Not an msn I’m sorry larhs. Either a call. Or face to face would be better.

Learning to love your friends… and your sweetheart starts with the family, in which how you show your love towards your family will demonstrate how you will love your boyfriend/girlfriend/spouse in the future… Therefore, contribute to the family. It isn’t a hotel, they aren’t your servants for goodness sake.

Love your parents and sisters, no matter what they do to you… your parents love you.. except for some exceptions lahs…

Make sure you teach your child well… I always wonder why curfews are said and computer time was banned… haha.. but now I know how important it is…

why am i earning money for?

it is painful and irritable. star trek was nice that was it.

anyway... just to update my checklist. i received my giro form... and sent it out to the bank.
I also changed my bank ... to signature instead of thumbprint. (: soo now i can sign stuff.. with my official signature.... okay. so now! i have officially 100 more smses! haha... i wish i signed up my plan a little later. so that i can get the student offer !!! grrr.. i want to "downgrade my plan" to the student plan! haha.. i hope i can!

i am.... going to be free really soon. i guess when you are free you start to think abit more...

you know... sometimes... life can be gone in just a flash... in an instant... BANG
you can just die.... and... no one will ever think about you anymore....
i want to be on the starship.... i dont want to get ejected out like jim...

peacee out