Probably studies would be more important..
I understand... today i thought i would have dinner with a special someone..
but... i realised she didnt really want to have it with me..
i guess, it was because of studies.. i dont know..
i had instant mee + vege + meat! haha a wonderful combination of
ingredients.. it was really filling! (:

*sigh*

bored

mms im at the office now! seating at the computer
sometimes there is really nothing to do!
sometimes there is!
but when there is nth to do.. i get really bored
haha. tonight im going for dinner with my whole team
ah.. so scary! cos i dont know my team well enough.

ohwell make new friends!
learn how to interact. its always good next time
when you are in a working world!

building rapport with one another

rawr

my exercise reigime

im supposed to be exercising now! i guess i'll take a break today! after a long day of exercise yesterday =x haha today, was interesting! i did quite abit of work! im quite happy!

DID YOU KNOW that rapport comes from a french word rapporter?!

saddening

disappointing.

Amazing grace

rawrs. I feel that sometimes
I believe and imagine too much,
sometimes my expectations are very demanding.
if you are not up to my expectation,
i will probably be disappointed and dejected!

I guess i shall not put my hopes too high on people.
they always fail and they are never perfect.
Its no use crying or feeling sorry for myself,
what is done is done, move on with my own life,
forget what people have done.
probably forget those people too.
It will be much easier that way.

I will want to learn dance soon! salsa first! (:
I hope someone would come and learn with me! haha

Nathaniel is inspired

It is just so confusing aint it (: life.

It was fun being able to catch up,
being able to feel e same way i did before.

God and his character.
Today i read "drawing near" haha.
It has been like 1 year and i havent finish reading the book.
SIGH, so much valuable truth so little passion in me!
I asked myself, why do i love God, why do i give him praise?
well, many atimes i say its cos i seen what HE has done in my life
the many miracles. But i feel its very superficial now.
Is it because of what he can do in my life that determines my love,
or is it who HE really is that determines it.


Lord im glad that during these feel weeks of the 10 commandments
i can learn to know more about character
know more about the... love of God
Lord give me that intimacy i desire that passion for you once more
There is non like you

beautiful song.
we love you lord
we worship you
you are our God
you alone are good
you ask your son
to carry this
the heavy cross
our weight of sin
I love you GOd
i worship you
for this was lost
now stand renewed
I give my life
to honour thee
the love of christ
the saviour king

being so far away from my very love.
it isnt that easy, it isnt that easy at all.
moving on with life as we call it,
brings so much joy, pain, bitterness....
what do i do when i feel my heart crying out for more?
what do i do when i cant seem to find happiness?
it isnt easy, it really isnt easy.
i wish for yesterday, i wish for celebration.
i wish for joy and laughter.
i wish for YOU.



Bring me to that place once again,
where there is love, where there is passion.
bring me...


But i have to mature, we have to peservere.
i have to stand tall, i have to be a man and get past this shit.
So that i can truely be with my love
with my dearest of my life.


this year has past so quickly...
My only regret was not spending more time....
next year i want to create MORE happy memories.


-Nathaniel