Missing someone gets easier every day because even though you are farther away from the last time you saw them, you are closer to the next time you will.


When you feel lonely, look at the sky and know that I am somewhere beneath that same sky, thinking of you and wishing you were here with me.

*nathaniel

i dunno if i did e right thing... but i know it was really stupid of me! (: hahahs... ohwell.. what can i do to turn back time? lalas.. im using my sister's laptop now! haha. my stupid monitor died on me? it was like... blackout then... smell smoke.. see abit of smoke hahahs.. crazy monitor! (:

anyway kbox with chloe yashu and dawn was fun... i thought more people would come tho? but.. haha. ohwell.. it was supposed to be a canoeing outing haha! :X funfun!
i suck at kbox.. i think the only song i really know how to sing is tonghua.. and... waiting for you! :P hahahs..

im waiting for you...
im waiting for you...
zhi dao yong yuan...

today was interesting.. after like talking on the phone for like 3-4 hours ? i finally slept till 11am hahahs. i collected my pay with an expectant heart.. to my horror i only got $145 instead of my $190. ohwell. they cheated my $45... my money for jeans! :P hahahs. ohwell. after that jiamin jingbao and me went to eat at china square. we ate quite alot? like fishsoup samba sotongs + desert! hahahs.. eat till we are so fulL! hahahs.. my stomach nearly burst okay! i went to carrefour and buy a toaster. jia min accompanied me.. and we chatted quite abit. hahahs.. we shopped and chatted. it was quite fun! (: I bought 2 new tops too! hahahs.. its damn nice and i love them! ^^ hahas. i went home happy cos i bought my tops! hehes. then when i reached home ? my mom was like.. why did you buy the toaster of this brand... this brand sucks blahblahblah... i was so fedup. oh shheesh.. its like someone buy you something say a thanks larhs... dont come and talk so much rubbish... bahs..i will live.
i hope tmr will be fun? going to SAV for the very first time! (: hahah... fun fun!

i went to iceskate in the morning.. met up with dawn to go all the way to jurong east. ohmygosh hahahs.. it has been such a long time since i travel all the way to the west... e only times i travel to the west were the pw times.. when all my group mates lived in the west! hahahs (: quite fun la. the iceskating was fun fun! (: but then... my 2 legs are pain-ed haha.. left leg got blister. and right leg still got the sprain which was aggravated by e iceskating wahahas. ohwell.. it was worth it though! after that... i went to eat at wisma. oh man. dont eat the ducknoodle anymore.. waste my money la.. i wasnt full at all larhs.. i rather buy 2 mango pudding then buy 1 plate of ducknoodle. hahas. ohwell! after eating we went to the garden... i was so tired by then all i could do was to pretend i was studying hahaha. >.<
i went to visit my friend straight after that? i heard he had dengee fever and everything.. woah... it was quite bad at first.. yeah.. but he said now he is getting better? and yeah.. so i rest my case! hahahs.. i really pray that he is alright! (:
when i went to meet my friends! erms... they suddenly started teasing about me and lucinda! ahhs >.< hahahs.. sighs. ohwell...

ahhh. stupid dawn... why you tag me for wad! :( hahahs. now i will have to do this funny quiz! grrs..

Rules of the game:
1. Do the quiz.
2. At the end, list the names of 5 people whom you want next to do this, and leaveand tell them to read your blog for rules.

*name someone who influenced you the most this year:
i dunno. the most recent was coach. and usually all you do remember are the recent events? yeps. so coach really influenced me alot. he really taught me alot. i mean he has alot of good values that are commendable.

*name five traits you admire in others and name five people who possess it: (not in order of importance)
actcute- jiamin! hahahs.. i really admire her for this! she is so tall but she still can act cute! hahahs.. usually erms.. tall people cant act cute! hahahs :P calistaa also another ACM aka ActcuteMonster! hehes.
gentlemanly - dawn. mmms i think dawn is very gentlemanly.. hahahs.. really..!
bravery- i really admire Liyi for her bravery ? i mean.. who would want to continue cycling after falling down a bicycle and getting your knee injured with lots and lots of blood yuck! Liyi did that! and yeah.. i really admire her.
generous- i think Mrpang and ms ong is very generous! hahaha.. they keep on treating us la.. ms ong always buy cakes for e team. and mr pang... our intercontinental buffet hightea. i will never forget that unforgettable experience! (:
sweet&kind- lucinda i think she is a kind girl. yeahs... there were many occasions that she showed her kindness~!

*name someone you will want to spend the rest of your life with:
huhh must name arhh! :P hahahs.. later everyone get a shock! i wanna spend with ******* hahahs. :P

*name someone you don't mind getting stranded on an island for fifty years with: if its 50 years right ? i better find a FAT person hahahs.. then i can eat him/her up... and... yeah i wont go hungry larhs. (: well... who shall that be ... calista ? :P heh sorry xP

*name someone you can't stand at the moment: i cant stand! yah. i really cannot stand. i got like a blister on my left leg ? and my right leg is still hurting from the bruise. hahaha. seriously, i cant think of anyone at the moment.

*name someone you sometimes wished to be like: Jesus! (: hahahs.. he is perfect in every way!!

*name the most popular person you know: -nil- duno who la. err david beckham ?

*name the weirdest person you know:myself? or that girl with the funky white glasses. haha.

*name someone whom you find fascinating: clowns! i find clowns fascinating... i love magic tricks too! i aspire to erms.. learn tricks. hahaah.

*name someone you find very attractive: chloe's friend is attractive, andy is attractive ! hahahs.. errs.. timothy is attractive! hahaha... alot of people are attractive laaa.

*name someone who is near perfection: nobody is perfect.

*name someone you'll ring up immediately if something great happens to you: is great something good or bad? if its something bad... i know that time i rang up timothy... yeps.

*name someone you'll confide your darkest secret to: timothy, daniel, czekin, and a few others larhs.

*name someone you trust most beside yourself: i trust almost anyone ?

*name someone you'll die for: hahahs..die for ? i dunno depends... on the situation... i may die for a few people larhs >.<

*name someone you'll vote for the president: okay i will vote for dawn >.< *shakes dawn's hand*

AND YOU GUYS ARE TAGGED: jiamin! calista! daniel! anyone in S78! anyone who is my friend!

3 days of chalet in a row. It was so interesting. I'm glad i went to the 3 days of chalets. I think i matured alot. I should change alot. i know what to do and what not to do. i guess i was living a life of impurity. stupid me. stupid girl, stupid boy. whatever they call me. haha.. i am that! (:

activities we did during the chalet.
the first day of chalet was just weird.. they bought a bottle of absolute volka. some people got high. i dunno.. the passing of the bottle to the gulping down of the volka. i been to these kind of occasions. what the use of sitting down and drinking volka.. passing it down. i mean... my friends n i drank 3 bottles.. >.<>.<
2nd day of chalet. i went to training early in the morning. haha. i was so shagged but i did 117 pullups.. in like 20 mins ? i think? we canoed a while in t boats and salam boats. hahas. quite tiring. thenn later at night we went night cycling. whoo it was quite fun! (: i mean... we travelled like from pasir ris to changi village to changi airport, around changi airport to changi park to tanah merah to simei to tampines to pasir ris. it was a total of 28.95km or maybe more ? im not sure. hahas. but the fun part was chionging down slopes on the roads.. with no cars? it was really really fun! (: we reached back chalet about 3-4am ? hahas.. fun. i was so shagged.. jiamin and i played like speed. thennn i was so tired that after i bathe i immediately slept. haha. it was the first time i slept in 48 hours ? >.<
3rd day morning.. i went back home to sleep till like 2.30 hahas. they were supposed to meet at 2.30 ? but when i reach tampines they were still there! haha! xP whee. anyway we played cards and ate at changi village again. ohwell. then we played a game. i dunno it invoked alot of emotions into it.. as coach asked us to play seriously. >.< sighs... i just couldnt take it anymore in the end... and i went outside alone to cry.. andy came along too... talking to me and everything.. it was just nice.. haha talking to andy ... tell him about stuff.. and he telling me about his stuff.. i dunno.. crying helps sometimes.. our coach is indeed inspirational... but somehow i feel sorry and dishearten.. ohwell!

irritation sets in when you are unable to do something that you long for..
frustration sets in when you are just a liability to other people..
sadness sets in when you cant seem to do the thing you want to do..

ohwell! (: hahahs... cool huhs..
listening to tian cong. ah ? wonder if its nice

ahhs. today was cool ? i mean.. i heard a blind woman playing the piano.. singing songs ... with all her heart ? like it was all she got? it was really touching and amazing like how can she feel the keys... i also saw my cousin, a very pro piano player.. you ask her play anything she also can play for you... she listens to the music and plays by ear... its simply amazin...

ahh. it has seriously been a interesting week for me? with like the camp comin to pass and the different activities i did. the camp was a great eyeopener for me? i mean... i learnt many many things through this camp. somethings i've learnt before and somethings i've never thought of doing in the first place.
anyway today coach said 2.4km must run 10.15. grrs.. i must train butbut... my leg is now like injured.. how am i supposed to run that fast ? furthermore my target is 9.30 hahahs. sighs! (: i dunno. i really must pia now .. i am quite motivated.. 80 pullups, 160 pushups, crunches if i want ... then run for 1 round around my estate! (: in the morning and afternoon. hahahas.

When I am down and, oh my soul, so weary;
When troubles come and my heart burdened be;
Then, I am still and wait here in the silence,
Until you come and sit awhile with me. Y
ou raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up... To more than I can be.
There is no life - no life without its hunger;
Each restless heart beats so imperfectly;
But when you come and I am filled with wonder,
Sometimes, I think I glimpse eternity.
You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up... To more than I can be.

i just realised my dream of marrying early (: hahas.. at 27/28 i wanna get married already? im not sure if that is possible... but.. ohwell! i want to ? it would be soo fun! :D

lalas... bored. bored bored. (:

ahhs.. it has been long since i blogged. (: hahas. really missed the blogger page?
my heart has just gone cold all of a sudden.. i dunno why. somehow... i just dont feel anything anymore. i guess its good ? but... i sort of miss the feeling..
blah. i dont care anymore. anyway i miss my pw group? hahas. i talked to jiamin today played pool and yeah.. i missed her! hahas.. aiyo! *oops* yepyeps.. after like so many meetings? of pw i feel that we gotten closer! (: alright i look forward to chalet now (:
ahh. i must must start studying soon.. i realised that i forgotten like everything? everything of what the teacher taught already. really must start.. haa but i dunno where to start from? ohwell.

-nathaniel

what am i to you.
am i significant in your eyes?
please say i am.
please let me know you do cherish me.

ahhs. my whole weekend was filled with activities ? saturday went to the flea market ? haha! well sort of ? i guess it was a flea market.. just that it was small and yeps... small (: . okay there was something pretty cool in that flea market. bungee trampoline! there are elastic stuff holding on to ya. you get to goo up very high! seriously it was cool. a little girl was like jumpinggg soo soo high. she could almost touch the trees! hahas. okay so we tried the kallang flea market? while waitin for jiamin to come... we were like singing our stomachs out? when jiamin came, we met with a strange incident! there was a huge puddle in front of us ? jiamin and calista couldnt cross becos of the huge puddle? they were like wearring their nice nice slippers. (sheesh girls) well.. with my intelligence we sort of managed to get across! haha. okay after that reached kallang and lucinda realised that she got cheated. there wasnt any flea market? yeps. haha. lulu was feeling really very guilty. ohmann. :P she got blister too! i wonder how she is now!
after this we went junction8 to go and support the band members. haha we were desperately trying to get marie's / jooleng's / hubert's attention. haha i was too short la. so i jumped up and down! =X ohwell they saw us eventually! we got bored after all and so we ate and went to calista's house! haha. we played like bridge and calista introduced a new game to us, some yahoo waiteress game? hahas. celestine and jiamin was playing it! haha. jiamin at first got lvl8 and everyone was like woah. lvl 8! thats high? hahas. celestine then played after jiamin.. e 1st try she got lvl 8 but the 2nd try... that was the time she became the wcg champion of that game! hahahs. we started playing hearts. playing up to 100 points. hahas. e time we started was the e time she started her game. haha.. when we finished playing hearts she was still going on and on! guess what lvl she got up until! haha.. WCG CHAMPION lvl 34!! ohmy goodness! anyway her dad is so sweet la! after that her dad came home? and i was like hello uncle! haha i think i must have charmed him or smth haha. suddenly he gave calista 50 bucks and ask calista to treat us supper! woahhh! hahaas. we ate like alot of rotipratas!! it was very nice! (: yeah. thanks for the treat calista.. if you ever read this blog laa. after that we went back and played hearts and celestine went back to train for her wcg title. ahh. i feel damn lazy to blog somemore haha. okay than we watch some super crappy shows. haha.. i will tell anyone that asks me what was the shows about! oh oh. i got pictures of me at some wedding dinner not so long ago. take a look if ya want.

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okay anyway. this is at dawn's request. "4. nat"

5 weird/random things about myself

1. im scared of cockroaches! i mean guys arent supposed to be scared of xiao xiang! haha.. Its not my fault that im scared of them. its just that many of the cockroaches those HUGEHUGE ones sometimes crawl across my feet when im on my computer, i would feel a tingling sensation. when i look down it would be a damn big cockroach with some white stripes on it like a zebra ? well sort la larhs. but cockroaches do flyy! hahas.. once i tried to gather my courage to hit a xiao xiang. haha it flew away! ><>< 5. i wanna grow fat ? hahas. but i dont know how! my weight is always stagnant! im not sure if its gonna increase anymore? bleh. i think i dont enough fats to convert into muscles ? haha. i dunno if the "must have fat to convert them into muscles is true" grrs. cos i want a nicer

now, the 5 people i would like to continue this retarded game on their blogs
not in order of preference
1. jiamin
2. cindy
3. anita
4. calista
5. dawn :P
5. joa

build.. a few days seems like a thousand years without you. (:

haha. today's training was tiring? iguess. sprinting requires alot of mental + physical strength haha. i tihnk im gonna train up on my forearms.. ><>< its gonna be FUN! FUN! FUN ! whee. 100 pullups aday.. i cann picture it now hahaha ! whee... im excited!

ahh. my hopes my dreams all dashed in an instant. my world falled down like rain. would i ever stand up again? would i ever be strong?

joshua 1:9 I command you – be strong and courageous! Do not be afraid or discouraged. For the LORD your God is with you wherever you go.

I know i promised to myself not to fall in love again
But I cant stop thinking about "LOVE"
Every time when I lay down to my bed I dream about it
When I close my eyes I only pictured the happiness I had when I was in love
Things are not the same, now and way back when I was in love all those happiness
I had changed to sadness Here I am no one to hold today and tonight, and I ask myself
Would I ever fall in love again? I have no ANSWER to myself.
Once i pictured the special times I had when I was in love
I just fall in love but I don't don't know why I promised to myself
I never though that I will lose her in my life but I was wrong
She was mine, and I was Hers but I don't what the love means to us at that time
I wished million times to get back for her
If only that wish would come truethere will no pain in our love ever again
I had a special time when I was in love!

ahh (: i hope cindy is alright yeps... canoeing like soo far away >< all the way to sister's island! woah... i cant wait to see her muscles after that! hahaha. it must be super huge.
anyway today i went to canoe despite my sunburnt. woah... haha i think me + jeans + my "hot" bod looks not that bad! hehs. i meann with me so chao taaa. but.. ouch its really a painful price to pay... canoeing wit sunburnt aint that fun ? yeahs.. the shirt rubbing against the skin. grrs. people purposely touching your shoulder! haha. my cousin too! touching my shoulder! :(
oh. anyway today's training was interesting? haha.. we did some teambonding activities. yeah.. my team3 rocks. (: oh oh. anyway i had to rush off for some wedding dinner in kulai?! hahas. it was soo fun! hahas.. i had 3 cans of beer + lemonade. haha. it was nice ? really. usually i hated beer and everything ? haha but i think cos only got 2% of alcohol thats why drink till sunrise also wont get drunk one la. hahaha. but yeah. the food was good whoo! my table was all girls lahh.. < 2 of my sisters and... like 6 more 27yearold girls hahaha. woahh. hahas.. -grins-
anyway i was complimented.. erms.. handsome and muscular leh! hahaha.. not that bad! (:

im happy!

something happened ytd that left me thinking for a while.

what happens when dreams become real...

is there a meaning behind it? i dunno.

ohwell... im burnt and its painful :( hahas. i wonder how to canoe today!

i had enuff of your rubbish... sou gou le. i given you so many chances... but you blew it all? how many times must you break my heart. how many times would i be hurt again... do you like my heart to be broken into a thousand pieces, no million pieces than you are satisfied?

____ i hate you and i will never ever love you again.

hahas.. damn shoik! imagine you say this to someone! (: hahahas.

ahh. i met a japanese girl online! haha.. she is funny and interesting! whee!

i love you

i love you, do you love me? sighs.


hahas. whee. im chionging game now larhs! flyff all the way =.= hehe i lvl 20 le! whoohoo.

ahhs.. STUPID POPUPS! hehe. *seenoevil* its adultfriendfinder or smth .. grrr.. so bian tai larhs... i cant delete the adware too ! grrrs!


i really wanna go out with you.
why cant you ask me !!
its has been days since i last saw you...
sighs sighs sighs! *blinkblinks*

ehs. okay today was interesting. actually i learnt quite alot from church yeahs, today sermon was about abortion.. but the main thing that struck me was that pride, greed, and some other sinful stuff have already taken a lil foothold in my life. no matter how little, it may seem it is still a sin. the number of times you sin in a day doesnt tally with the number of times you confess your sin... wouldnt it be like erms.. bad?- yeahs. it held me thinking for a while... making me feel all so dumb and guilty. ohwell. (:

anyway i dont support abortion! not even if the child is like having some defects ... its still a living thing! its still a life.. and i shall not murder..


hahas. after church i was wanting to go shopping ! haha so i went ?! with czekin, daniel, timothy, shi han and david. it was fun trying out all the clothes.. especially the white singlet AH PEK clothe :P hahas.. it was disgusting! anyway i bought a bag, a polo shirt? and a sleeveless shirt whee. maybe i'll wear it after canoeing training or smth.. whee. im happy!! cos i bought stuff? and i spent all my money! haha. oh i saw a G2000 jacket ... it was erms light brown in colour is of a vry nice material! it is yet formal yet casual! hahas... (: it really looks nice! but the price also very nice! hahahas $129 if i am not wrong! haha... but yeah i shopped for pretty long larhs... haha i hope to get more $$ then i can spend all on clothes! haha. its so fun buying clothes!!


this is to minty?- she wanted this thing! hahas. cindy, she is a really nice girl! (: her canoeing is good! hahas.. really. she is always behind me! chasing after me! haha. ooh this sounds wrong, but yeahs.. she has good technique and strength i think?? (: cindy has also an interesting personality! haha.. but yeahs.. her erms willingness to go an extra mile for the personn is really commendable =p hehes.. i especially like the red glittery stuff that is taken! hahas :P errs.. good luck for your OP , dryrun tomorrow! (: swim,chompchomp,cycle! (:

wah. okay. my theory proved me right? but... after the training.. i was damn shagged. arghz. hahas.. i really must train on my fitness now.

increase frequency,
improve on my strokes,
win evelyn,
feel so shoik :P
but it was erms... lucky. now she knows how to use the paddle.. im so dead. im just gonna increase my frequency once again.. i slept for 1 hour haha. i feel so so good (:


tired.


to the one and only you:`- i will just wait till you are ready. wait till im sick and tired of waiting. wait till there is no one left in this world. its just too hard to forget, just too hard to regret! silently... i'll wait. -runs away-

ahs.. okay today was a fun day.. filled with events again? (: firstly we had training? and yeah i met up with minty to go to school.. haha. ohman i caused her to be late! butbut... it was the jam okay! i left the house at 7.45 ... so it was quite early already! haha. but yeah it was fun talking to minty larhs! whee.. she is so crazy! ohwell. erms.. thenthen we had gym training ... then some timing taken for 2.4km. woah. i cut 1 1/2 mins .. for my 2.4km.. it was really a great achievement. haha. yeps. erms... then i had to rush all the way to tampines and take 29 to changi village! woah. i went to changi village hotel! haha. it was nice! really. it gives us the cosy feeling... that nice atmosphere! okay. i went there to do cip? there is a conference held in changi village hotel that is promoting sailing for the paralympics. haha. i hope i spell correctly. and yeps. the KING of greece came and R.A. teo chee hien? yeahs.. it was a interesting sight. we were like ushers, registration people, car park marshalls? yeps.. hahas.. i think it was really very fun! and oh oh! i handled a $28k sailing simulator. woah.. and it was tough being the whole thing into the hotel cos it couldnt fit into the doors. haha. jiaxing also wanted to take the picture of the king of greece. but haha he didnt dare. ohwell! fun fun! oh i always went to sight see? and yeah saw the old changi hospital once again? haha.. whee... HAUNTED ahhhHHhAH... scary larhs.. spirits roam there ? i guess?


okay. by like 9pm ? i was already very very tired.. i slept in the bus on the way back? taking 29 and 72... ahh.. today overall was so so fun.. just that there was a minor cock up! grrr. i lost my handphone pouch!! i dunno lah.. i keep on losing my handphone pouches.. im just like getting irritated with my ownself. haha. im gonna follow what corn said "no use having a handphone pouch la " haha. so im not gonna buy it anymore! whee. at least i solved a problem of mine.


loneliness,

i longed for love,

but to no avail,

i searched for warmth,

but i found coldness,

who do i turn to?

what should i do?

would ever love lift me up where we belong?

would i ever soar together with you on love?


i know who to turn to.

alright. im gonna tell you about my interesting day! haha.. woke up at about 7am.. ahh.. the alarm rang.. thenn i was like.. OH MANN! why did my alarm ring :( then i went back to sleep. hahas.. slept till about 8am. soo yeah. washed up and played gunbound till about 11am? i went straight to do my surveys! haha... whee... from 11am to 2pm i was walking up and down the serangoon north estate. okay. basically i earnt about $60.. not that bad for 3 hours. haha. ah.. but it was tiring? walking up and down the stairs... facing rejection... and yeah... trying to get my 3 "orginals" first! oh man chinese is soo important for this job. hahas... i wasl ike... errs.. zhou cha! blahblahbalh... my chinese really cannot make it. haha.. yeah. but aiyah now i need to pay back my sister and... my friend ahh. no more $$ le hahaha. oh. something good happened today.. while i was doing survey.. one family was like talking about financial burden and stuff. then the lady was so kind... keep on talking to me! haha she really made me feel spirited. and and when the husband came back he was like... "here you go a drink... today's weather so hot..!" in chinese. ahh.. so sweet of him. >< sighs..yeahs.. thank you! :) thank God :)


hahas. okay. then then.. i came home and ate like A WHOLE BIG BOWL OF porridge.. haha. seriously very big. i wonder how i could finish but i did! hahaha. yeah.. and i did like 90 bicep thingy >< and and... some situps... yeahs.. haha then i went to swim at night! :) ahhs... i saw a junzhang in my club to day after i went to swim. oh man! he was so tanned. haha.. so chao ta larhs! it was nice seeing him.. these few days i have been like bumping into him... ohwell..

-tired! nathaniel

haha. shant brood over the past. i think i deleted most of my saddening posts! hehe. removing all the sad memories behind and moving foward to a new beginning!! -marches- wahaha


rabbit - thanks for everything (: aiyah.. you know what i meann



anyway i recently just got a job. ahh.. i hope im brave and bold enuff to go up door to door and yeah... i think this one must pray one! hahha.. pray that the person will be kind enuff to do my surveys.. cos i know its gonna take damn long... about 20mins for a survey.... i hope its shorter tho.. haha. ohwell... but its $10 per survey... its gonna rawk! i really hope i get really kind people. haha.


ohwell i got nothing to say now..
signing off! -

*edited*

today i did some weights ? haha. i feel so erms accomplished! really. its like the first time im being so self disciplined and yeah. :) hahaha.

oh. tmr is pw dryrun 2? haha. whee. i dont really look forward to it tho? hahahas.. ohwell!

*edited*

i know who to turn to... some friends may act like they really are close to you.. but only true friends will stick with you with thick and thin! there are only a few friends that are close to my heart that i know that at the end of the road we are there for each other.. ahs.



ah. today was chinese? haha. i dunno how i will do? so dont ask me? cos i really dont know! its always a ahhh.. chinese pass can liao larh! hahaha..
oh i went to the world of sports sale? 50% off woah.. i was like very happy. i saw like many shoes and everything.. thenn i was like hey this one is cheap.. 70 / 2 is $35 ohmy! haha.. and so i was like i want to buy! then disaster struck. haha. salesperson, " ahs. only got 1 size this size 7 " i was like ARGHH! no wonder its $35 la. haha. anyway i bought teva slippers in the end lorhs :( so sad right? haha


thenthen i had like canoeing training? woah. i feel so frustrated even though i was number 8th. i feel lousy larhs.. i dunno what went wrong and why cant i canoe properly? ahhhs.. must really really train myself up.. traintraintraintrain. lala.

okay.

*edited*

hahas. okay that doesnt sound nice at all! wahahas. but bleah... it was really fun... it was really.. nice to be there. =boxes myself= this is torture!! hahas. mental torture. i think too much when i got nothing to do. i think i should just study chinese or smth.. and forget about it.. maybe?

ohwells. erms.. tomorrow i got chinese larhs!! so scared... yet so excited to finish it! hahas.. D7 its all i ask! :) my aim my goal my mu biao! :) wahaha. must go and do extra preparation today! by praying more ahha! im sure it will help.. firstly to calm my nerves down and 2ndly to just have confidence larhs! my 17 years of chinese is ending tmr! woohoo! haha.


oh! haha. 31 march! i must remember! i have a bday present to give to... making earrings i think... its gonna be fun making earrrings! really! whoo! i hope i do it nicely!

ahh.
fun fun! audio conversation is fun! haha.. buying a $5 microphone is yay! :)

ahh! so fun! :) i finally got the KICK from sending a rabbit home! whee! hahas. ohwell! ((: today was just a crazyy dayy! yesterday i went to denise's house! woahh! at first i thought she lived in e whole building? as in... there were like many short building which consists of her condo! but i was disappointed! hahas. ohwell! but anyway her house is INDEED nice! d= yeah and we did PW there! haha. it was so fun! im glad to have a good pw group? i think im blessed.. yeah they are like all nice to talk to and fun to be with! hehe! yays. and we dont have like quarrels.>< d=" our"> today we went to subway haha. to think that i wanted to buy a 12 inch burger laH! haha i think i was crazyy to think i could finish it! i was already struggling to finish a 6 inch burger haha! :P aiyo but just now i also got teased! hahas. bleah! soopaiseh! sorry lucindaa... hahas.
okay my day was spoilt by a guy on the bus. i sat beside that guy and moved abit to get myself comfortable. thenn i was very puzzled la he keep on staring at me? while i was playing my game.. i think he siao or wad. then later he say i move too much! thennn like very angry. and walk off.. i was very pissed lah. i really never do anything then he come and .... scoldscoldscold... damn zzzz .. hahas. ohwell. i guess sometimes we have to forgive irritating people! ARGH! hahas
anyway canoeing training was very tough la. to think that my coach bluffed me! ahh! haha okay the coach asked us to run? so the girls were like infront first and we were going at a slow pace! haha so later he was like okay at the bridge you are going to run back and forth. and yeah i will take note of you. sooo i was like ah. ineed to do well! so the coach said go and we ran.. when i reach back the coach said " okay well done you got top5 and now since the girls havent come back yet.. go back and run back here again. this is a test of your stamina. " woahhh! CRAZYY LA hahahas. i was dying really... almost died. yeah i walked abit then starting runnign again! total we ran about 8km? then after canoeing we did our funny stuff and canoeed for about 6 km! hahas. wah my muscles were simply aching! haha oh yah and i got a njc friend? she was like errs every lesson i would canoe about 20km? not alot of.. she say must cover milelage first and everything! WAHHH! really really.. simply BIAN TAI! haha. and i am like going for 6km and im like sooo tired already. grrs. how to win! :(
hahas.. okay i talked too much! hehe. :) -nathaniel

hehs. alright i think its time for me to blog! ahh. wait i cant seem to find information on my OP.. ahh! i thought i knew the websites!
OH NOO!! haha

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Pat Maweenie

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haha. im a pat maweenie whee! :) thats soooo cool! ohmy gosh! WAHAHA

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hmms and im a firefighter! whee muscular strong! :)

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okay i anyhow took this test.. and oh no! haha i suck :)

eh eh... whee. i think my results arent that bad at all! and my class is promoting one by one i guesS ? except for one.. ahh.. ><>< afew

anyway... i think im in a very crazy mood right now! getting like all so hyper but all so angry at the same time ? haha. its just so funny. ahhh my passion for skating has just been ignited? :) woohoo! i wanna skate. today i skated around my whole cafe dunno how many times! wahha it was soooo fun! skating round people! yeahhhh. :)

lala.. today's session bring jc into megalife... was intereesting . aiyah but.. maybe people have mixed feelings over this thing.. haish ! ohwell! lets see what is the decision and support it fully :D

haha i feel soooo fat now!just went to seoul garden and eat like siao! firstly i chionged the meat... chicken and beef... eat eat eat eat! haha then later i chiong prawns... ate like 15 prawns? thenn i chioonged icecream! wahaha. i took 2 plates of icecream... i think it was definately 1 litre! WAHAH :X
okay la maybe i was exaserrating :P wahaha.
but still im like so full till i am rubbing my stomach almost everyminute! wahah :)

ah.. tmr is results day.. ahhs. im abit scared larhs. i wanna do well! but i rather everyone in my class stays and dont get retained then me getting good marks. its so sad... i hope my friends dont get retained. bleah. all the best s78. ><

hahas.. Goal is a boring show.. okay there are some exceptions here and there but.. still it is still boring and okay la uninteresting >< haha.. today i watch coach carter!! ahh. it was soo good. so inspirational and so touching :)) its a blessing really to watch these kind of films.. i dropped a few tears. haha. compared to the myth and goal... coach carter was such a good film.. its one of best i ever seen... leaving a great impression in my mind!! i guess studies come first.. and then cca. and everythin? haha. ohwell!

bleah. dont feel like typing le!! -nathaniel

im kinda on a rush! haha gonna watch goal now at 9.15pm.. crazy larhs. i feel very very broke i think i should and will save money!! hehe.. anyway the chinese test was crazyy haha. i was soo so tired already? like twice i didnt really understand what i was writing. whee. luckily i promised myself to fail this test! haha. ohwell...

love is patient love is kind... love does not envy it doesnt boast! :) such love is indeed admirable!!-


love makes the world go round. well.. what really makes the earth go round...? around the sun i knoww.. but why does the earth spins? hmms. there is a acceleration that is perpendicular to its rotation around the sun? and therefore its spins but doesnt affects the sun rotation? wah. chims larh. i think im talking crap le !

Avoid is the best solution. dont make enemies but avoid. -grins. no matter what it takes. act and avoid!

-nathanieL

sometimes i wonder why.. i bother to waste so much of my time and effort... i just dunno.. dont tell me i like herrr .. bleah!! lalala... nevermindd stop thinkinggg hehe. :)
oh i heard about some chinese grading thingy tmr? wahaha. i think its gonna be cool! im gonna FAIL it... cos i want to! :)

haish. a total change of mood in an instantt! bleah!
it is just... crazy larhs... today i met my first 3 months og mate! ahhh she is still as pretty as ever!! haha. too bad she has a boyfriend. wahahha.. justkidding ><. but yeahyeah. she is pretty. i went to erms... cine and watch the myth. oh mann it was really boring.. well... aiyah boring .. the only thing i can remember is the song!! mong chen ren, la la la la la ... haha :) okay i forgot already.
anyway i went to lau pak sat ? to eat dessertt ahhh! i think strawberry milk ice is one of the best dessert i ever tasted. seriously.. besides of course icecream and brownie larhs!! haha..
my whole day was like so fun.. besides some minor hiicups.. but like something really changed everything larhs. ><>< a tear or 2 didnt count! hahah.. but i guess... its okay larhs.. somethings are just not to be. if that person doesnt want anything from me... thenn so be it! :( but... aiyah super dumb reasonnn larhs why i argued.. ohwell.

-nathaniel

ahhs. okay first things first!! whee. i can tell about my miraculous disappearing headachee! yesterday... i was having a splitting headache when i was studying for maths. it was terrible and it lasted the whole night. i thought an aspirin would do the job of taking away the pain.. but i guess it didnt. okay. in the end i slept.. till 6am in the morning.. when i woke up i immediately felt that sharp ouchhiee feeling hehe. :) haish. i just hoped it would go awayy soon. so i carried on having that pain till in school..
7.15am - i took my friend's panadol in hope of curing my pain.. but to no avail.
7.50am - time for examination.. went into the examination hall feeling all nervous and jittery. i knew i couldnt do my exam well with a headache.. it was maths somemore :(
7.58am - ah. i told phil my situationnn.. and she said pray la :X
7.59am - i was like oh yah hor why i never think of that. haha. so i prayeddd whee.. and GOd answered.. when i opened my eyes my headache disappeared..

haha. aiyahs. my day was full of events. >< after maths i was sooo tired.. but i went firstly to my friend's house !! woahhh his house was full of comics! wahahas. it was sooo cool! haha there was shaman king i amm soo excited especially now.. im reading some basketball thingy.. woah. its soo cool! i think the person deserve my respect. haha. he ran 300 rounds aiyah.. its really hard to explain it! the story is just so interesting.

haha after i went to his house i went to play lan... played for like 2 hours? then i went with timothy to play pool! grr the pool was full so we play arcade! some car game.. i realised that car games are not my forte... thennn i went to some church event oh man i was soo tired. haha then later we play arcade again! hahaha grinding the curb and stuff... aiyah .. i was getting proer every sec haha.

oh .. anyway i gotta train really hard already :( i wanna be super fit.. okay la now im fit but not super fit :P haha. thenn i also wanna read the hobbits!! the LOTR book haha pretty cool! and i wanna read finish shaman king too! and.. this basketball series... ahh... i wanna slack :) haha.

now after the exams i dont really know what to do... sighs.. i shouldnt get too complacent i guess :X ohwell!

whee. i shall blog my whole day. i woke up. on the computer and mugged the chemistry tutorials... then later i played abit of games... then later i mugged the chemistry tutorials again. I ate my lunch.. then i started mugging my chemistry tutorials again... after that i played abit of games and then i started mugging my chemistry tutorials... SOon after this i ate my dinner. after dinner i mugged my chemistry tutorials and then played abit more of games.. hahaha :X what a super day i had. oh mann! :( crazyyy.. i spent.. erms... 12 hours on the computer .< okay la not that bad wahahas.. luckily there are people chatting with me.. if not i think i would faint! haha. . i think im not ready to mug :P!
tmr is physics... and econs! whee...

i think my day was fun. :)

ahh. :) i just wanna write this song out! haha :) its really very niceeeee! i think... im in such a loveydovey mood noww! heh

dont leave me this way...
i cant survive without your sweet love..
.....
love lift us up where we belong..
where eagles fly..
on a mountain high..

We could be heroes
just for 1 dayyy. :)
.....
We should be lovers...
We should be lovers and that's a fact
We could steal time just for one day
We could heroes forever and ever
We could heroes forever and ever
We could heroes ... just because
i will always love youu.
how wonderful love is
now you're in the world
......
i think its sooo sweet! ahh. but i cant reach ewan mcgregor rangeee.. ahhs. saddening!:) hehe. ohwelll i shall just sing it one key lower i guess :X lalaaas. *burps* anywayyy today instead of studying haha i played pool.. gosh i suck! seriously.. i think i gotta to really train soon! i have just simply lost my touch! at 1 point of time i was not bad.. butt... grrs.. ohwell!! trainn pool! thenn i studied a little bit later onn!!!
oooh happy bday mommy!! hahas..whee. she is getting olddddd laaaa! we went to eat some fish head seafood! ahh the soupp was soo good! -grins- i always always crave for more! haha especially when you finish the first round of soup! and the rest of the "jia tang" aint that nice anymore !! haha ohwell!! :)

-flies like wings on eagles! anyway today at churchhh we learnt about having idols and finding rest in whom? why should we find temporary rest that can also be sought through idols... we should turn to Jesus who gives us rest to the soul! i think its meaningful!! ahh. sighs.. let go and let God. cast your cares upon him! whoots.

alright shall try to change my blog =/
-Nathaniel

i remember very clearly.. (: how i used to sing to youu on the phone with my guitarr. whee! it was soo fun then... bleahh. the past is indeed terrifying! haha... okay this shall be a saaddd blog post. heh. i feel that i have drifted so far away from many people! many people i deemed as close friends in the past. This is just a saddening feeling, having spent so much time and effort and within a few months of not contacting one another... those people are like foreigners.. okay maybe i over exazerated. ohwell. but still.. the idea is there.
maybe i gotta do something about this? but if i do spend time on getting back them... what do i do about the others... oh mannn (: i guess ... i should just see which person is like more important.. and yeah decide for myself!!~
i dunnoo.. i really ddont... hahas..

ahhs.. alright.. i shall spend my day writing my blog.
today i was sooo ready to study..
haha. i plan to finish my tutorials on organic chem
and... read finish the whole of the econs book..
haha.. but now im already slacking!! this is so so bad! haha.

oh oh.. i was listening to some sermons..
it was on me being SO very SMALL .. so so very small
and God being so very big.. he went on saying that...
he who created the universe will never forsake you..
the universe with billions of stars! and
yeah the sun even tho so far it is our nearest star..
dunno how many lightyears away from us.
the magnitude.. the awesomeness of God.. is just uncomprehensible.
just thinking and reflecting on them.. just makes my head painnn!
simply mindboggling...
i wish to be lost in wonderr.. of you.

grrs. i just cant stop thinking about the fun times we had!!
though not many... but but.. ohwell!
i just cant forget that person.
1 question, does she care... arghhhs.
nathaniel forget it. i dont want anything anyway.

flies away`

-grins. i think i should blog my day out! :) hehe.. ohwell.. its getting nearer and nearer the examinations.. and i dont know if i really can do it.. hahas.. sighs. i will study and study till i get everything right... its amazing how quickly it will pass.. but now i have to just focus focus.. i wish i got a super brain that can stuff all the information in my head very quickly gahs. argghz.

i must'nt get too attached! i must'nt..i just must'nt! haha. whoo! :)

alright.

signing off nathaniel.

haha.. hey. i found a different side of my friend! haha! ohwell.. im slackking now.. even though its like between the promos.. im still slacking! AHH! haha give me the SUPERDUPER stress feeling so that i can studyhaha ;)
ehh.. i made a new friend corn!! haha. he is pretty cool!


-ohwell!-
its late noww i think i shall go and sleep.. tmr paper is CHINESE OHMYGOSH! haha.

maybe my love will come back to me someday

haha.. hey. i found a different side of my friend! haha! ohwell.. im slackking now.. even though its like between the promos.. im still slacking! AHH! haha give me the SUPERDUPER stress feeling so that i can studyhaha ;)
ehh.. i made a new friend corn!! haha. he is pretty cool!


-ohwell!-
its late noww i think i shall go and sleep.. tmr paper is CHINESE OHMYGOSH! haha.

maybe my love will come back to me someday

dawn rawks

its been a crazy week. having exams and everything.haha. my dad was right.. about this exams being something to gauge your standard.. and about how you are coping with your jc life as a whole :)) anyway.. its all over now :) maths and chem was alright =/ but physics was a killer.. haha.. gp ... haiya cannot say one. ^^;;
anyway.. i have been thinking about so many stuff.firstly so many of my relatives are just getting cancer noww.. its just so sudden... then someone got an accident... and.... now my dad is like on the verge of losing his job. i think its been crazyyy. really. i dont know.. i really dont know what to do..
daniel is like asking me... what about joining this joining that.. >< haha. i just dont have any more mood at all ... ohwell
-rubbish nathaniel

-God loves you

hms. it was pretty cool. i meant the whole trip. okay. the white water rafting wasnt really THAT good. i thought it would be better. but i meann... i made a few new friends.. cheryl, clement, clement's sister ( i think i forgot her name). and vanila? haha. yeah... i found out that vanila is actually abby's and andrea's friend? haha that is soooO cool! ohwell. yeah. and... playing speed was good. >< i guess im good at speed after all! :))
ohwell. its time for me to start work! kai gong liao lorrhs. seriously. my common test is just around the corner. and.. i havent really started studying... heh. i must really get away from all my distractions!! my phone computer and blades and... aiyah.. almost everything! wahahs. oh yeah VCDS! i tried my best to study on the bus.. but to no avail... There were like super nice shows to watch! heh. and a friend to accompany! aahh..
i think i sort of got over my crappy thingyy.. but i still wondered what happened exactly.. haha. but im glad its all over. i think that after everything i realised 1 thing. i did not want too much commitment on my side. and i guess.. commitment was needed.. unless we were just friends which i strived to be.

God come back!

haha. i guess my blog was redundant after a while.. ohwell. at least no one would see what i would type now :)
anyway. haish. its simply crazy. i have no idea what happened or anything. >< suddenly there is no smses nor calls. oh..
heh. i just got an inspiration.
a relationship is like an ice cream..
if you dont solve the problem fast enuff.. the ice cream will start melting and soon it would be impossible to erms?? blahblah it :)). haha ohwell..
a lack of vocabulary i guess. ^^;;

i want the song.
consuming fire, fan into flames.
a passion for your name....

i guess. i did the morally correct thing?
ohwell. sometimes you gain.. sometimes you lose..
there is still abit of sadness...
when you lose something really precious..
its like a parent losing his/her child...
e child goes off to create another family..
its simply heart-wrenching...

i love anime :)
prince of tennis
full metal alchemist
naruto
bleach

these 4 titles are now my babies! haha i am like chiong all of them..
heh. i must start studying tho :)) ohwell!
signing off.
-nathaniel

a quote from trili's blog:
a relationship can only survive, if there's giving and taking. you have to give and take.. if you keep giving, you'll be extremely burnt out at the end of the day. if only one side keeps giving, the other party would just keep taking and taking and taking.. and the other party wont learn how to give ? cos in their mind its just " all i need, is to take.. i dont need to give. " give and take, give and take. its just like, water in a jug. if you keep pouring and pouring, it'll just become empty. not a single drop left. but if you keep filling it up, keep giving the jug water, then there'll always be water to pour out. thats how droughts occur. because people keep using water, and the sun dries the water out. yet it doesnt rain, so its just dry land. dry cracked land. no harvest, no plants. no life. one can always give, without loving. but one cant love, without giving.

i think this is so true.. :( yeahs.. ohwell..
you can read the rest of the entry at trili's blog. >< LOl im like advertising.. ohwell! :)) wahahas..
-nathaniel!!

the stinging sensaTion.. of a slap.
wahahas. ohwell
today was fun fun! :)went out with some sports club members
hahas.. cycled! whoo!
then.. later play frizbee! wahahas. it was totally coooll! :)
lalas.. yepyeps..
i feel that God is indeed a good God..
think of a possibility that a bus could skip 5 to 6 stops in a row.. haha. and reach my stop! :D
yeah. God's hand was on it.. lala!
God's hand was on my results too..

now i realise the wonder of a "sorry" ?
it cant get rid of all the hurt...
but at least it can get rid some of the pain.

im sorry for giving only empty promises.
im sorry for hurting you.
im sorry for giving you so much pain.
im sorry for breaking your heart into trillion pieces.
im sorry for letting my anger take control.
im sorry for even not sending you back home.
im sorry for making you jealous.

hahas. i suntanned todayy WHOO! :) so so so fun? :P even tho its aloneee

haish.. quarreled with her again.
so crap larh :(( i reallY HATE it...
when we quarrel.. over the minor things...
even now when we are friends...
why do we still quarrel?
what is your meaning of being friends...
i really really dunno..
i am gonna give you all the freedom in the world..
im not gonna control you anymore ..
if it that called controlling you...
im not gonna let you say you give in so so much...
im gonna try not to have so much of my free will..
and listen and obey what you have to say...
so that we will never ever have quarrels..
never... i really really.. beg you..i never want quarrels again..
im gonna give IN EVERYTHING i have...

AHHHH I DONT BELIEVE IT... bleah. everything disappeared.. i BLOOGED LIKE SO LONG>. fine im just gonna summerise everyTHING :( BLEAHAJKDHSAKJL! >< hahas.. okay lah. basically my day has been pretty fun.. i went all the way pasir ris... then.. took some photos then went home.. yeah.. haiyo.. :( i was arguing over friendship+ time consumption vs laziness :) haha... ohwell :) i took the former! heh. anyway.. today i was very happy.. heh. cos.. i received 2 MMS.. heh. the first one..i was like WAH SO PRETTY. heh. then the 2nd one.. i was like.. heh. so cutee :) heh.. if anyone ever get to my phone.. ;) heh. maybe i;ll show to you :) haha.. lala

heyheys. my first new post! :) heh.
consuming fire..
fan into flame
apassion for your name
JESUSSS :) hahas.. ohwell..

haha. my parents... and my sister are crazyy! "D haha.. they sort of just got their new phone.. haha. and they are like... so comical larh! :) haha.. my dad last time was like buy a cheap phone... buy a cheap phone! haha. >< ohwell! and noww he bought like a expensivee one :( a 300++ one with 2 year plan... bleahh! aiyo.
-nathaniel



omg haha so fat already! haha