Missing someone gets easier every day because even though you are farther away from the last time you saw them, you are closer to the next time you will.


When you feel lonely, look at the sky and know that I am somewhere beneath that same sky, thinking of you and wishing you were here with me.

*nathaniel

i dunno if i did e right thing... but i know it was really stupid of me! (: hahahs... ohwell.. what can i do to turn back time? lalas.. im using my sister's laptop now! haha. my stupid monitor died on me? it was like... blackout then... smell smoke.. see abit of smoke hahahs.. crazy monitor! (:

anyway kbox with chloe yashu and dawn was fun... i thought more people would come tho? but.. haha. ohwell.. it was supposed to be a canoeing outing haha! :X funfun!
i suck at kbox.. i think the only song i really know how to sing is tonghua.. and... waiting for you! :P hahahs..

im waiting for you...
im waiting for you...
zhi dao yong yuan...

today was interesting.. after like talking on the phone for like 3-4 hours ? i finally slept till 11am hahahs. i collected my pay with an expectant heart.. to my horror i only got $145 instead of my $190. ohwell. they cheated my $45... my money for jeans! :P hahahs. ohwell. after that jiamin jingbao and me went to eat at china square. we ate quite alot? like fishsoup samba sotongs + desert! hahahs.. eat till we are so fulL! hahahs.. my stomach nearly burst okay! i went to carrefour and buy a toaster. jia min accompanied me.. and we chatted quite abit. hahahs.. we shopped and chatted. it was quite fun! (: I bought 2 new tops too! hahahs.. its damn nice and i love them! ^^ hahas. i went home happy cos i bought my tops! hehes. then when i reached home ? my mom was like.. why did you buy the toaster of this brand... this brand sucks blahblahblah... i was so fedup. oh shheesh.. its like someone buy you something say a thanks larhs... dont come and talk so much rubbish... bahs..i will live.
i hope tmr will be fun? going to SAV for the very first time! (: hahah... fun fun!

i went to iceskate in the morning.. met up with dawn to go all the way to jurong east. ohmygosh hahahs.. it has been such a long time since i travel all the way to the west... e only times i travel to the west were the pw times.. when all my group mates lived in the west! hahahs (: quite fun la. the iceskating was fun fun! (: but then... my 2 legs are pain-ed haha.. left leg got blister. and right leg still got the sprain which was aggravated by e iceskating wahahas. ohwell.. it was worth it though! after that... i went to eat at wisma. oh man. dont eat the ducknoodle anymore.. waste my money la.. i wasnt full at all larhs.. i rather buy 2 mango pudding then buy 1 plate of ducknoodle. hahas. ohwell! after eating we went to the garden... i was so tired by then all i could do was to pretend i was studying hahaha. >.<
i went to visit my friend straight after that? i heard he had dengee fever and everything.. woah... it was quite bad at first.. yeah.. but he said now he is getting better? and yeah.. so i rest my case! hahahs.. i really pray that he is alright! (:
when i went to meet my friends! erms... they suddenly started teasing about me and lucinda! ahhs >.< hahahs.. sighs. ohwell...

ahhh. stupid dawn... why you tag me for wad! :( hahahs. now i will have to do this funny quiz! grrs..

Rules of the game:
1. Do the quiz.
2. At the end, list the names of 5 people whom you want next to do this, and leaveand tell them to read your blog for rules.

*name someone who influenced you the most this year:
i dunno. the most recent was coach. and usually all you do remember are the recent events? yeps. so coach really influenced me alot. he really taught me alot. i mean he has alot of good values that are commendable.

*name five traits you admire in others and name five people who possess it: (not in order of importance)
actcute- jiamin! hahahs.. i really admire her for this! she is so tall but she still can act cute! hahahs.. usually erms.. tall people cant act cute! hahahs :P calistaa also another ACM aka ActcuteMonster! hehes.
gentlemanly - dawn. mmms i think dawn is very gentlemanly.. hahahs.. really..!
bravery- i really admire Liyi for her bravery ? i mean.. who would want to continue cycling after falling down a bicycle and getting your knee injured with lots and lots of blood yuck! Liyi did that! and yeah.. i really admire her.
generous- i think Mrpang and ms ong is very generous! hahaha.. they keep on treating us la.. ms ong always buy cakes for e team. and mr pang... our intercontinental buffet hightea. i will never forget that unforgettable experience! (:
sweet&kind- lucinda i think she is a kind girl. yeahs... there were many occasions that she showed her kindness~!

*name someone you will want to spend the rest of your life with:
huhh must name arhh! :P hahahs.. later everyone get a shock! i wanna spend with ******* hahahs. :P

*name someone you don't mind getting stranded on an island for fifty years with: if its 50 years right ? i better find a FAT person hahahs.. then i can eat him/her up... and... yeah i wont go hungry larhs. (: well... who shall that be ... calista ? :P heh sorry xP

*name someone you can't stand at the moment: i cant stand! yah. i really cannot stand. i got like a blister on my left leg ? and my right leg is still hurting from the bruise. hahaha. seriously, i cant think of anyone at the moment.

*name someone you sometimes wished to be like: Jesus! (: hahahs.. he is perfect in every way!!

*name the most popular person you know: -nil- duno who la. err david beckham ?

*name the weirdest person you know:myself? or that girl with the funky white glasses. haha.

*name someone whom you find fascinating: clowns! i find clowns fascinating... i love magic tricks too! i aspire to erms.. learn tricks. hahaah.

*name someone you find very attractive: chloe's friend is attractive, andy is attractive ! hahahs.. errs.. timothy is attractive! hahaha... alot of people are attractive laaa.

*name someone who is near perfection: nobody is perfect.

*name someone you'll ring up immediately if something great happens to you: is great something good or bad? if its something bad... i know that time i rang up timothy... yeps.

*name someone you'll confide your darkest secret to: timothy, daniel, czekin, and a few others larhs.

*name someone you trust most beside yourself: i trust almost anyone ?

*name someone you'll die for: hahahs..die for ? i dunno depends... on the situation... i may die for a few people larhs >.<

*name someone you'll vote for the president: okay i will vote for dawn >.< *shakes dawn's hand*

AND YOU GUYS ARE TAGGED: jiamin! calista! daniel! anyone in S78! anyone who is my friend!

3 days of chalet in a row. It was so interesting. I'm glad i went to the 3 days of chalets. I think i matured alot. I should change alot. i know what to do and what not to do. i guess i was living a life of impurity. stupid me. stupid girl, stupid boy. whatever they call me. haha.. i am that! (:

activities we did during the chalet.
the first day of chalet was just weird.. they bought a bottle of absolute volka. some people got high. i dunno.. the passing of the bottle to the gulping down of the volka. i been to these kind of occasions. what the use of sitting down and drinking volka.. passing it down. i mean... my friends n i drank 3 bottles.. >.<>.<
2nd day of chalet. i went to training early in the morning. haha. i was so shagged but i did 117 pullups.. in like 20 mins ? i think? we canoed a while in t boats and salam boats. hahas. quite tiring. thenn later at night we went night cycling. whoo it was quite fun! (: i mean... we travelled like from pasir ris to changi village to changi airport, around changi airport to changi park to tanah merah to simei to tampines to pasir ris. it was a total of 28.95km or maybe more ? im not sure. hahas. but the fun part was chionging down slopes on the roads.. with no cars? it was really really fun! (: we reached back chalet about 3-4am ? hahas.. fun. i was so shagged.. jiamin and i played like speed. thennn i was so tired that after i bathe i immediately slept. haha. it was the first time i slept in 48 hours ? >.<
3rd day morning.. i went back home to sleep till like 2.30 hahas. they were supposed to meet at 2.30 ? but when i reach tampines they were still there! haha! xP whee. anyway we played cards and ate at changi village again. ohwell. then we played a game. i dunno it invoked alot of emotions into it.. as coach asked us to play seriously. >.< sighs... i just couldnt take it anymore in the end... and i went outside alone to cry.. andy came along too... talking to me and everything.. it was just nice.. haha talking to andy ... tell him about stuff.. and he telling me about his stuff.. i dunno.. crying helps sometimes.. our coach is indeed inspirational... but somehow i feel sorry and dishearten.. ohwell!

irritation sets in when you are unable to do something that you long for..
frustration sets in when you are just a liability to other people..
sadness sets in when you cant seem to do the thing you want to do..

ohwell! (: hahahs... cool huhs..
listening to tian cong. ah ? wonder if its nice

ahhs. today was cool ? i mean.. i heard a blind woman playing the piano.. singing songs ... with all her heart ? like it was all she got? it was really touching and amazing like how can she feel the keys... i also saw my cousin, a very pro piano player.. you ask her play anything she also can play for you... she listens to the music and plays by ear... its simply amazin...

ahh. it has seriously been a interesting week for me? with like the camp comin to pass and the different activities i did. the camp was a great eyeopener for me? i mean... i learnt many many things through this camp. somethings i've learnt before and somethings i've never thought of doing in the first place.
anyway today coach said 2.4km must run 10.15. grrs.. i must train butbut... my leg is now like injured.. how am i supposed to run that fast ? furthermore my target is 9.30 hahahs. sighs! (: i dunno. i really must pia now .. i am quite motivated.. 80 pullups, 160 pushups, crunches if i want ... then run for 1 round around my estate! (: in the morning and afternoon. hahahas.

When I am down and, oh my soul, so weary;
When troubles come and my heart burdened be;
Then, I am still and wait here in the silence,
Until you come and sit awhile with me. Y
ou raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up... To more than I can be.
There is no life - no life without its hunger;
Each restless heart beats so imperfectly;
But when you come and I am filled with wonder,
Sometimes, I think I glimpse eternity.
You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up... To more than I can be.

i just realised my dream of marrying early (: hahas.. at 27/28 i wanna get married already? im not sure if that is possible... but.. ohwell! i want to ? it would be soo fun! :D

lalas... bored. bored bored. (:

ahhs.. it has been long since i blogged. (: hahas. really missed the blogger page?
my heart has just gone cold all of a sudden.. i dunno why. somehow... i just dont feel anything anymore. i guess its good ? but... i sort of miss the feeling..
blah. i dont care anymore. anyway i miss my pw group? hahas. i talked to jiamin today played pool and yeah.. i missed her! hahas.. aiyo! *oops* yepyeps.. after like so many meetings? of pw i feel that we gotten closer! (: alright i look forward to chalet now (:
ahh. i must must start studying soon.. i realised that i forgotten like everything? everything of what the teacher taught already. really must start.. haa but i dunno where to start from? ohwell.

-nathaniel