Soulmate.

I decided to write out who i want for my soulmate. To me. looks, might come first for first impressions. but i believe in inner beauty that will radiate brighter from within, that is the most important.

I hope my wife would be like this....
- I want to display the real nathanielchenzhengwei infront of her, and not feel like i am being scrutinized over everything i do. I also do not want to feel embarrassed over different issues.
- I don't want her to get bored of me. Even when i am talking rubbish.... even when i am very quiet. We will enjoy the silence together. We will enjoy the sounds of nature.
- I don't want her to look and my financial status and compare it with other people. Or feel that i am inadequate because I am not rich.
- I wish that everywhere we go will be an adventure. Not something to dread about. Even to a coffeeshop, you will enjoy the company.
- I want a God chaser. I want someone who is after God's heart.... So that i can talk to her about spiritualll stuff rawr!

Most importantly, i want to make a right decision.... many times i have relied on my own strength and mind to make decisions... that are not pleasing to God's eyes...

I remember yesterday i wrote about... friendships and commitments and what i truely hold dear. Day 38, tuesday Jesus regarded the fellow christians as his brother, sister and mother.. Does that mean we have to treat everyone like how we would treat our siblings? I guess. relationships are always important.

Day 39... relying on the holy spirit. What is the holy spirit to me? It is like water. Imagine your very being is a cup. The holy spirit will flows and fills up the cup.
If you want more and more of the holy spirit. It will fill up to the very brim..of the cup.
However, the problem is that the water is living. So it chooses where it wants to fill up.
It is like saying the owner of the cup either has a pump to pump out the water or has a jug to pour living water into the cup.

What happens when you are fill to the brim.... You become very attractive to the thirsty. You become fat and heavy. So you will want to exercise your faith and do good works for the Lord Jesus Christ.

Oh Lord, may you fill me to the brim. May your presence be ever so strong.
Work through my life, make me a spiritually fit person. Let me thirst from you.
for only you can satisfy my hunger. Only you can fill my cup till overflowing.
Let me be aware of your presence with me.
Thank you Lord,
Amen