When i entered the room,
my sister retorted NAT why you hang the clothes till so ugly!
I thought to myself, whether its ugly or not ... i do not care.
i only care if my clothes are dry.... haha. ohwell.

Some people said im spending alot of money. but... i somehow disagree.
Most of the time I am investing in my friendships, commitments and love.
i heard it on a youtube video today. the things that actually matters the most,
is friendships, commitments and love... and after thinking... i think its true..
maybe money aint that important after all. My 2 months of break has really
been a good time just to relax and spend time with my friends.
Indeed ... my 2 months has lead me to meet new friends... friends that i find to be fairly interesting. Different people with different personalities. I had time to just catch up with my guy friends. and to really talk to them and share my life with them. I had time to exercise and wake up at.... 12pm haha. it really feels good.

Sometimes.... you try to look forward to something. But you realised that actually whatever that you wanted... aint that attractive after all... for e.g.. when i was in jc2... i wanted so badly to enter the army. becos.... i thought it was a piece of cake , (i was fit , blahblah) but when i entered the army.... i WANTED to get out so badly. When i was in OCS i badly wanted to get a staff position. when i was in it... i got a horrible boss... and i spent alot of money on transport and food. Many times, the grass looks greener. But .... if you look at it carefully there are bugs in the grass... the green is the colour of the bugs.

However, I feel that there are things that are important to look forward too... such as.... finding my soulmate. and becoming more like Jesus... haha.
thats why i feel that it is important to invest in lives instead of material wealth.... okay i think it made no sense.. but who cares...

I really had 2 wonderful weeks.... i thoroughly enjoyed the companionship, the evilness and the sorrow. I have learnt how important friends are. And... how different people can really be. Sometimes i guess i really have to think abit more.. before i speak. becos i never know how much it might actually affect someone. It might be nothing for me. becos i grew up living with SUANING .... yeah. but sometimes it might just burst the ego bubble of many. I remember saying "oh but i've got an office job with a 1k pay" it was really meant jokingly but i didnt know there was an adverse effect on that person.

I guess sometimes its better to just ZIP and act like you are thinking ALOT although you are not, than to really burst out and harm the other person.

my money... has started to drop significantly... i am thinking of starting to find a job once again... somehow i am quite reluctant. I am afraid of not being able to spend time with my friends. On the Apr the 9th i am also going to China. haha i am going to meet my friend in Beijing. i really look forward to that.... but i am really gonna miss the companionship that we are sharing...

sometimes i do ask myself whether would i give willingly and sacrificially for a friend and whether it was worthwhile to spend my time and my perspiration.
Maybe once in a while...
but i do know i definitely treat her slightly better than a friend... ohwell.
it has been 4 memorable days of knowing and spending quality time ....
i hope i did enough to leave a lasting impression!

My only regret is not being able to make my mind about certain issues and.... not being about to remember certain things such as *look below*.

I also need to remember honey water in a washed plastic bottle .... rawr..